Yesterday started out being a great day! I went to lunch with my sister Becky at Cafe Rio at around noon. And we had a great time, talking till I had to leave for my appt. at the Gym with my trainer. The workout was good too. I was pretty tired and ready for a shower and then a nap! On the way home though I read a text from my husband who had written that Joseph and Emma’s kindergarten graduation was IN PROGRESS!! That was a half an hour ago!! I have NEVER missed a kindergarten graduation! And I also didn’t have their costumes ready either! I thought graduation was next week!! Oh my gosh, seriously, I thought I was gonna have a nervous breakdown. I was fighting tears the whole time when I got there. I had missed the ENTIRE thing. They were just leaving the stage area when I arrived. If you could’ve seen Emma’s face when she saw me…it was just so sad. I tried to pretend that I’d been there the whole time, but I just couldn’t. Joseph didn’t realize I’d been gone, but Emma knew. So on the way to the car I ‘fessed up. And, of course, I lost it. I just started bawling! They kept telling me, “It’s ok Mommy.” But it wasn’t ok. I missed something special. Something REALLY special! They were looking forward to it so much and they made me promise to be there. They were the only ones there without their costumes!! I’m not over it…I don’t think I will EVER get over missing that. I’m still crying about it as we speak. I cried, I sobbed and I mourned all day yesterday.
Today is a new day, so I decided to take pictures again and you can tell me if you see any improvements. I don’t really see any, but I’m biased. I’ve lost 50 lbs. now. I’m really proud of myself. I know we’re not supposed to proud, but I can’t help it. I feel like I have done something HUGE.
I know the photo on the top looks a little weird but I was playing with it and I like how I look like that. Ha Ha!! It brings out my eyes...lol.
60lbs. to go...
3 comments:
OH Julia! My heart aches for you. All of us mom's have gone through that at one time or another.. But you know what? Those kids will remember how upset you were that you didn't make it. THey will remember your tears and your heartache and look back on that day and add it to their list of "I know my mom really cares about me because......" That's what matters. A mom who not only cares, but shows she cares and shows her kids that it's HUMAN to make mistakes. And that life continues on. In one minute you taught them a LOT! You are a gREAT mom. I can tell. My heart melted when you wrote how the twins said "It's okay." Awwww. Total forgiveness. That is beautiful. You taught them well.
P.S. You look amazing!! I totally can tell a difference. Your whole appearance in your face has changed. Good for you! Keep going!
P.P.S. I pushed "start"!!!! I got the laundry done today because of you. Thank you! LOL!
oh my gosh....from one mom to another......I am so sorry. I aways worry about that. But we are only human. right? You are such a good mom and amazing person. What would really be sad.... if you didn't care. You look so amazing and I am so impressed. I have wanted to lose 30.....but I am a stress eater and I have had lots of that. Hang in there and smile. Oh and how is your hubby?
YOU LOOK AMAZING!!!! I'm so impressed!!! Just wanted to say and tell you how great you look! Love ya!
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