Dear Mom,
I don't know when you will read this. It maybe tonight, it may be a month from now. But I wanted to take this time to tell you, I am your son. I have ben all my life. Just as you've been my mother, the same. I haven't made all the best choices. And I have hurt you more than I care to admit. I regret so much in my past, and at times its all that occupies my mind. And to be honest, theres a lot tht I regret about my present. I've been through phase after phase. Temptation after temptation. I've loved you and I've been so terribly infuriated by you that it could have been mistaken for hate. But I will always know that you are here for me. That you support my decisions, whether you agree with them or not. And that you love me. Mom, I don't know what I would do without you. There are so many things I wish I could take back. I wish that those times you cried because of me, the ones that I just cursed at you for, I wish I had hugged you and told you everything would be ok. I may not have been the best son. And in the ocean of religion, I was the fishing boat that swayed the entire time I was in the rough seas. But one thig is for sure, I have and will always hold you in te deepest part of my heart. Whether or not it is spoken, I will love you the same. I'm sorry I didn't go on a mission. it was nothing that you did, or didn't do. It wasmy own self. My pride and my selfishness. I lived for the now, rather than living the life I knew I should. But I DID decide to go on a mission. And although I decided against a conventional one, I am serving in a different way. I have told many people of the religion. I've disspelled countless rumors that many have held. I've met people from all parts of the globe and I've influenced them, even in the slightest ways. Even if they do not see it. I've invited some to church. And I've showed people the book of mormon. I've told people of Joseph Smith. And I've told people of God and his beloved son, Jesus christ. I may not be on a mission, but I AM a missionary. I KNOW that I am in the navy for a reason. And I KNOW that something good is coming from this. I love you mom. Deeply and truly From the deepest depths of my heart. You are my mother, and that will never change.
P.S. I need another pocket size book of mormon... I left mine with Parker Reinert in Great Lakes... lol
April 27, 2009 9:33 PM
And I cried...
3 comments:
And I just did now TOO for YOU, Julia! That was beautiful! Thanks for sharing.
And if your son is reading this.....I just want to tell him: "You are one classy guy for giving the letter to your mother. I can tell it was from the heart and it's the most beautiful gift any son could give to their mother.
Again to your son...."Hang in there! Temptation IS hard! It truly is. It only shows that the Adversary DOES know YOU and your potential. That is why he works SO hard on you sometimes. Imagine what that potential must be! WOW! You are SO loved by your family AND the Lord! Continue to be a great missionary."
What a priceless gift from your son. He is an amazing guy and you are a great mom for raising a son that would express himself like that. As LDS mothers, we have high expectations for our sons, and we want what we want for them, then they make a decision, and we see them blossom and grow. Not all go on traditional missions, but they made the decision for a reason, and it always works out. Look at the difference he is making. Smile big! cause he is awesome!!!!
Awwwwww.....Julie......Wade.....you guys made me bawl like a baby! It is so good to see you Wade express yourself as the boy that I always knew and loved. What a wonderful gift you gave to your Mom. I love you both.
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